Summer melancholy

Haven't written in here for a long time! For all of you out there who are reading my blog, I appreciate it! I must say, I got shy after I sent it out to everyone. I stopped writing in it, after that. I will have to get over my performance anxiety!

Yesterday was a glorious summer day - in the 90's! I spent the day, I must admit, sad, melancholy, thinking of what I used to be doing on days like this with the stupid, loser ex-boyfriend. At times, rare times, I had to remind myself, we would be out adventuring in the summer, taking in the glory of the beauty of the Pacific Northwest and all of our favorite places, fishing, camping, me swimming. Summer days. Swimming, laying on the hard, fiberglass boat seat/bench, lounging in my bikini, tantalizing the boyfriend... ah... heaven!

I was thinking of the places we could be and the waters we could be enjoying and the relaxing we could be doing together... I felt sad.

I stayed home and in order to stay cool, stayed inside and watched my marathon of Harry Potter movies, none of which I have ever seen. It was pretty ok. I didn't go out, didn't tantalize the Olympian men in short, cute, barely summer outfits...... I couldn't think of anyone worth tantalizing. Couldn't think of people I wanted to be around.

Kind of a sad day.

This morning, 4:21 a.m, it is thundering outside, raining. It is good. Perhaps a fresh start to a new day. And I definately won't have to water this morning! : )

Love,
K