I dreamt last night I was with my entire family and we were helping my brother and sister in law pick out/pick up a new adoptive child... to add to their family. I already have two adopted nephews who are their sons... and I was comforting my nephews, one of whom in the dream was much younger than he actually is, today, about getting a new baby in the family and them not having to fear a new addition that will be taking everyone's attention... but not love.... from them.... And, in the dream, my sister in law comes out, (I am watching through a window- a car window?), holding a baby girl! We hadn't thought of a GIRL!!!!
I wake up and think about that. A baby girl! I have always wanted a baby girl! In my dream she was round and baldish in a cute little (plaid?) dress with white ruffle trim..... I name her Alice. I wake up, slowly, thinking of this name. Alice.... Alison... Elvis Costello's beautiful song, Alison. One of the most beautiful songs in the world, I truly believe.....
I think about holding a baby girl I name Alison, and singing Alison to her, and playing it in the background. I start wondering, what would it be like to have a baby, now? After all of these y ears? My life would definately be full! And no longer quiet, that is for sure! My house would be full.... Trips to doctors, changing diapers, school, daycare?, trips to the beach, dance classes, trips to the park.....
I start thinking about my house and what changes would need to be made as I think about where I would put her.... And then start thinking about remodeling, which I have always thought about, anyways... and then it strikes me, perhaps an addition on the back???! I think about a master bedroom, full size closets for me, french doors to my lovely backyard, an added living room area, an added eating area for the kitchen, perhaps a real laundry room, an added bathroom upstairs for Alison....... And it starts to all make sense......
A baby? A life with a baby? A family for me? Being a single mom? Now? After all of these years, at 44? Adopting a baby girl?
Wow.
Big thoughts to think about, waking up, this morning.........
Oh, and a puppy to go with her, too... a little white fluffy puppy she grows up with that she hugs and loves and they play together.
wow......
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A friend of mine at age 46 or so adopted a little girl from Russia. It could happen! But geez, kids are so much work, and puppies are even MORE work!!
If you want to remodel, I'd do it before you even THINK of adopting. That's enough upheaval in your life, and kids need stability. Says the childless woman. ;)
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