Where have YOU been?

Where was he
night after night
desperate as I was
to hear from him?

Where was he
day after day
when I dragged my body
tired, exhausted
home from work?

Where was he
when storms shook
my house, this city
and I worried, alone?

Where was he
when I sat
lonely and so sad
as the weekend approached
dying inside to see him?

Where was he
when I missed him so
longed for him so
wanted to share my life with him?

Where was he
before I left the country
wishing he would care enough
to call before I would go?

Where was he
when I was hurt or sick
taking care of myself
myself miserable sick on my couch?

Where was he
when they died
when I faced the shock of death
alone?

Where was he
when I made a party for us
and he refused to come?

Where was he
when I asked that he come with me
accompany me with my friends?

Where was he
when I called
desperate to get in touch with him
and the phone would ring and ring and ring and ring?

Where have you been
showing up only when you please to
only when you want my body
only when it suits you
and now-
you expect me to be there?