Shining

I dyed the back of my hair pink. It is starting to fade. I wanted something different. I wanted something strong. I wanted to say "Don't fuck with me!" to men who reject me, refuse to call me back... Let them know up front that they need to tread carefully with me as I am a strong woman who won't take no shit - or who, more accurately, doesn't WANT any(more) shit!!!!!!

I call it "my peacock tail," feeling colorful and bright! But the first day, I was so self-conscious! What would people think? Is it ugly? Is it too much? All day I was embarrassed, humbled, mortified even.... I thought perhaps I had made a big mistake!

However, that weekend, I went to an event, put on my best peacock clothes, shined my best peacock smile and peacock self, and had a great ol' time! I strutted my stuff and just enjoyed myself! As I wanted to do, all along! Be myself! And let that be known!

I had a positive response to myself as I put it forward into the world, that night! I had mixed responses about my hair, but by the end of the night, I no longer even thought about it, no longer even cared!

Since then, I have worn my pink hair self-confidently!

Now, it is fading... Soon to fade out completely! It has been an interesting sort of experiment.... I think I have gotten what I intended out of it... empowerment and control, perhaps, for myself..... Mostly empowerment, which comes with it, control....

I think I might do it again... just for fun!

Shine brightly, Peacock Me!

Love,
OKC